"I was the lion you do not remember who pushed the boat in which you lay,a child near death, so that it came to shore where a man sat, wakeful at midnight, to receive you." "Then it was you who wounded Aravis?" "It was I." "But what for?" "Child," said the Voice, "I am telling you your story, not hers. I tell no-one any story but his own ." "Who are you?" asked Shasta. "Myself," said the Voice, very deep and low so that the earth shook: and again "Myself," loud and clear and gay: then the third time"Myself," whispered so softly you could hardly
hear it, and yet it seemed to come from all round you as if the leaves rustled with it."

from The Horse and His Boy by C.S. Lewis


Sunday, November 15, 2009

alive at 25.

when I was in high school, ninth graders were required to take wellness. wow I hated it so much. having to dress out to do different gym activities and rotating time in the gym with time in the classroom. the classroom time was the first (and hopefully only) time I ever remember falling asleep in class and drooling. yes, I said drooling.

right around the time I got my learner's permit to drive at the ripe old age of 15, we went through this book program called "alive at 25" in wellness. it seemed like turning twenty-five would be so far away, but here it is. I am alive at twenty-five.
there's ten years between me and then. isn't that crazy?

tonight one of my friends since 8th grade texted me to tell me happy birthday. we've told each other happy birthday every year since we were 14. even though we don't ever see each other, I think we still surprise each other every year by at least acknowledging the other one's birthday. in an strange way, it has kept me able and willing to look to the past to see how far I've come.

my dsg's verse for the week is, "my son, keep your father's commands and do not forget your mother's teachings. bind them upon your heart forever; fasten them around your neck. when you walk, they will guide you; when you sleep, they will watch over you; when you awake, they will speak to you. for these commands are a lamp, this teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life."

lately I have felt that I have nothing new to contribute. not to say that I've reached my peak as a person. I surely hope that isn't the case. but I do feel like it's time for new thoughts. I'm hoping that's what this next year signifies. new thoughts, new habits, a new heart. I'm thankful that it has been Proverbs 6 that I've been meditating on all week because I feel like it brings so many things together for me: recalling those commands and teachings from the past, and purposefully bringing them with me into the present as I try to discern where the path takes me next.

I don't know what it looks like but the truth is, I never did and I'm still... alive at 25. it's a good place to be.
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